Steam Release

Witten on the 19th of July, 2016

I was scared of crowds, but you told me to get over it
               So I did
I rode the bus everyday, and even stood on the crowded train
               It wasn’t enough
You told me to make my own way, and when I argued you said ‘grow up’
               And I couldn’t
Throughout all the orders I only wanted to make you proud
               The trouble is, you never said how.

-myacetrack

desultorydeviations:

ask-henriette-lafayette:

fortheloveofaslansgoldenmane:

ask-henriette-lafayette:

ask-desperately-laurens:

pro-gay:

maniacalwalrus:

pro-gay:

daovihi:

pro-gay:

almightyrose17:

pro-gay:

I’m Gay

I’m A Lesbian

I’m bisexual

i’m trans

Im Asexual.

I’m not sure yet

it’s ok!

a wholesome post

freaktribute:

hempkitty:

can someone please be proud of me like fuck I’m trying

I’m proud of everyone who’s struggling but not giving up. I’m proud of every single one of you out there who has difficulties to get up in the morning because they have no energy. I’m proud of you and it’s okay to take a break! Move on.

rhodanum:

You know, it will never not be ridiculously wild to me how much the ace community on this fucking site gets tarred and smeared by people who should goddamn know better. And it’s even wilder when you realize how fiendish and insidious it is that accusations of homophobia and lesbophobia get launched at people who  are criticizing members of the LGBTQIAP+ community for bad behavior. 

Seriously, want to shut down any and all dissent related to your Behavior? Make it so that the arguments are about Who You Are instead. Works every goddamn time. 

I already talked about this, but let’s bring it up again. More than a decade ago, when I was nineteen and a volunteer Security Officer for the Pride March, I bit off the heads of two well-known cis gay men, two leaders of the movement and famous online for their fiery condemnations of homophobia in my country. Said men would also engage in virulent transphobia and transmisogyny on their blogs, up to and including advocating the banning of trans women from the March. When they made it clear that they would be taking pictures of trans women to later eviscerate on blogs and forums, I told them point-blank that if I got even a whiff of that during the Pride March, I would have the gendarmes escort them out, put them in a taxi and send them home, until they fucking learned to behave. 

I got dogpiled for this by the community. The two were my most stringent detractors, but many others also joined them and for a long while I debated just cutting off contact altogether, for the sake of my sanity and blood-pressure. I got called a homophobe, got called a bitch, a whore, all for daring to stand up to those two cis gay men and their repugnant behavior that made the community actively unsafe for many others. 

Over the years, I’ve seen bisexuals (and particularly bi women) getting attacked this way and having the same epithets hurled at them, whenever they dared to criticize the rampant biphobia and misogyny associated with biphobia in the community (remember the whole ‘het-partnered bi people’ fiasco? You should be reminded of it for the rest of your life, if you actively contributed to it). 

I’ve seen pansexuals have everything from our legitimacy to our place within the community itself get questioned and doubted and actively rejected, but heaven fucking help you if you dared bare your teeth over this, if you dared show your anger, if you dared rip the goddamn community a new one, if you dared do a simple demographic study to see who the most vicious campaigners for exclusion were and then point them out. In that case, you were a homophobe, you were a lesbophobe. 

Am I to understand that in the above cases, not being a homophobe or a lesbophobe would have involved letting members of the community cheerfully walk all over me and unquestioningly spit on my right to be in the community, regardless of who I’m seeing or not seeing? 

Do I even have to point out how utterly fucked that is?

And now I’m seeing the same thing playing out with ace people and it makes me sick down to my fucking bones. The same arguments are at work, the same tired hatred, the same hand-wringing over nonexistent problems, the same Purity Litmus Tests and the exact same closing of ranks among the people most active in all this bullshit, to guard each other’s backs. 

‘Ooooh, you cannot possibly criticize us for what we DO, you see. That would make you homophobic/lesbophobic uwu’.

Language is power. Remember this. Having your language taken away from you is having power and agency be stripped away from you. Having the ability to point out and criticize the people most active in committing exclusionary acts against you is being rendered entirely toothless. And that is the intended end-goal. 

To the members of the LGBTQIAP+ community incensed by this. Ask yourselves why your first reaction is to lash out at me and others who have been repeatedly abused and excluded and kicked at and attacked within the community, instead of the people within the ranks committing all of these acts? Food for goddamn thought.